Current mood:	thoughtful
Current music:	coldplay - fix you

even heros have the right to bleed
sentimental entry time.

im in outdoor adventure 2 gym this year. basically we focus on team building and earning each other's trust doing rock wall climbing and high ropes courses, a journey that is often tough but fun and beautiful, when we go to devil's lake at the end of the year. mr. patton is my teacher. he is my hero. we climbed the rock walls and stuff this past week.

today, however, was different. mr. patton decided to tell us the story of his brother's suicide, because today is the anniversary of it happening. it was the most moving story i have ever heard. i tried to hold back my tears, but i lost that battle early on. mr. patton told us the story not to make us feel bad for him, but to possibly prevent another suicide from happening. he felt so terrible that he missed the signs from his brother, and said he couldnt stand it if it happened again--if he prevented one person from contemplating/committing suicide, it was all worth it. and as i saw him breakdown in front of my eyes, i found a deeper respect for him. he is the most courageous person i have ever met, and i admire him tremendously for that. with all that he has gone through, he still finds a way to get up in the morning and come to class with a smile on his face. he always encourages us to push ourselves, to try something that scares us, and is always there to support us every step of the way.

for these reasons and so many more, he is my hero. i want him to know that, because im sure it would bring him a moment of happiness in these hard times. at least i hope it would.

"tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you"